As time goes by, the feeling of loosing them is getting stronger.
I still remember the day I first stepped out from home, I knew, I knew i would never go back to have a long stay (I mean really staying there) anymore.
It symbolizes freedom, but it's not always good. Because at the same time, I can never rely on them anymore.
Somehow i miss those days, when i could tell what had happened on every sch day, sharing with them everything about our sch teachers, friends, clubs...
Now, only through phone, which's the way i hate.
I hate phone, I hate having talk with ppl through phone. It is....... COLD, of course not the real coldness as the phone gets warm only, u get what i mean.
My horoscope is said to be a very caring person, especially to family. I never admit it, but now, I finally got that.
Family love is that kinda love that u'll rather sacrifice urself cos if they get hurt, u feel the hurt doubled.
I think the most important reason why i feel so is that, I dont feel the belongingness here.
I'm not alone.
But i'm alone when i face some of the problems. I cant share, i shouldnt share and i'll not share.
No, yes i would share, but only after the peak of the sadness had passed or after the problem had been solved.
It's not that my friends are not caring enough. THEY ARE CARING PPL, THE MOST CARING BUNCH OF FRIENDS I'VE EVER MET IN MY LIFE.
ermm simply because if those things are sad things, WHY SHOULD I SHARE SADNESS TO PPL?
and for some reasons, i cant tell some of my things out.
There are many kinds of friends,
some are emo-ers, crying-buns, need ur guardian and guidance, but not everytime.
some u'll share all those watever funny, lame, boring things with, endless talk and companion.
some are funny, cheer u up, kaki to go out have fun
some are outing kaki too, but girls-talks more.
some are those u can never miss to meet up with everytime u go back to klg, endless girls talk, share and reminisce, laugh and "wash".
some are those u can share academic things.
some are those u can exchange knowledge and opinions on more serious matter from political, social, health to science and film, which i like, it's not boring at all like what u think.
some are more artistic, dont really talk more, we share video, artwork and film, usually having same point of view, sometimes diff but never run too far.
some are those u talk through fb, when u feel empty, alone, boring, or when u need someone, anyone, saje, chatting with no topic, nothing make sense.
some are extremely caring and considerate, they dont really know how to talk, but will do whatever to ease u and they remember anything u have said, u have posted and what u have done.
And some u meet them once in a while, but they will never lazy to update ur latest news, and when u need them, they will be there.
er.. I have specific people in my mind for every point i've listed up there.
But conclude all the points,
there's one person's name who will appear in every end of the line.....and
that's ME, myself.
I still remember the day I first stepped out from home, I knew, I knew i would never go back to have a long stay (I mean really staying there) anymore.
It symbolizes freedom, but it's not always good. Because at the same time, I can never rely on them anymore.
Somehow i miss those days, when i could tell what had happened on every sch day, sharing with them everything about our sch teachers, friends, clubs...
Now, only through phone, which's the way i hate.
I hate phone, I hate having talk with ppl through phone. It is....... COLD, of course not the real coldness as the phone gets warm only, u get what i mean.
My horoscope is said to be a very caring person, especially to family. I never admit it, but now, I finally got that.
Family love is that kinda love that u'll rather sacrifice urself cos if they get hurt, u feel the hurt doubled.
I think the most important reason why i feel so is that, I dont feel the belongingness here.
I'm not alone.
But i'm alone when i face some of the problems. I cant share, i shouldnt share and i'll not share.
No, yes i would share, but only after the peak of the sadness had passed or after the problem had been solved.
It's not that my friends are not caring enough. THEY ARE CARING PPL, THE MOST CARING BUNCH OF FRIENDS I'VE EVER MET IN MY LIFE.
ermm simply because if those things are sad things, WHY SHOULD I SHARE SADNESS TO PPL?
and for some reasons, i cant tell some of my things out.
There are many kinds of friends,
some are emo-ers, crying-buns, need ur guardian and guidance, but not everytime.
some u'll share all those watever funny, lame, boring things with, endless talk and companion.
some are funny, cheer u up, kaki to go out have fun
some are outing kaki too, but girls-talks more.
some are those u can never miss to meet up with everytime u go back to klg, endless girls talk, share and reminisce, laugh and "wash".
some are those u can share academic things.
some are those u can exchange knowledge and opinions on more serious matter from political, social, health to science and film, which i like, it's not boring at all like what u think.
some are more artistic, dont really talk more, we share video, artwork and film, usually having same point of view, sometimes diff but never run too far.
some are those u talk through fb, when u feel empty, alone, boring, or when u need someone, anyone, saje, chatting with no topic, nothing make sense.
some are extremely caring and considerate, they dont really know how to talk, but will do whatever to ease u and they remember anything u have said, u have posted and what u have done.
And some u meet them once in a while, but they will never lazy to update ur latest news, and when u need them, they will be there.
er.. I have specific people in my mind for every point i've listed up there.
But conclude all the points,
there's one person's name who will appear in every end of the line.....and
that's ME, myself.
we,ourselves=our friends
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