After such a long time, I'm lost again.

Lost, I feel so lost now.

It had been going well in everything, why now?

I just wanna faster finish my final exam and my first jury since i came to UCSI, thats all, then i can go back to enjoy my first longest holiday.

Something strikes me.

I tried to avoid this feeling of lost, cos it doesnt really important to my future/ to my pathway, but when night falls, it comes to me again.


I pray.


I leave my problem to God, cos i know i cant solve it. God has the will.

However, i hope to pray again,  to beg Him to give an answer as soon as possible.

But, man proposes, God disposes. He always have a better plan for me.

All I need to do is to strive hard.


Ohya, recital that day, which is my 3rd recital in UCSI a.k.a. my 5th experience to perform on stage (although there's no proper stage).

I would say among the 5, this time was the best. Cos I'm not nervous as past, still got a lil bit nervous when i was playing but I managed to realise and control myself, which is what i couldnt make it before.

Er but a sudden attendance of Dr P'ng did frighten me.

my friend Wed posted this, it's exactly how i feel.

Well I have been searching all of my days
All of my days
Many a road, you know
Ive been walking on
All of my days
And Ive been trying to find
Whats been in my mind
As the days keep turning into night

Well I have been quietly standing in the shade
All of my days
Watch the sky breaking on the promise that we made
All of this rain
And Ive been trying to find
Whats been in my mind
As the days keep turning into night

Well many a night I found myself with no friends standing near
All of my days
I cried aloud
I shook my hands
What am I doing here
All of these days
For I look around me
And my eyes confound me
And its just too bright
As the days keep turning into night

Now I see clearly
Its you Im looking for 
All of my days
Soon Ill smile
I know Ill feel this loneliness no more
All of my days
For I look around me
And it seems He found me
And its coming into sight
As the days keep turning into night
As the days keep turning into night
And even breathing feels all right
Yes, even breathing feels all right
Now even breathing feels all right
Its even breathing
Feels all right